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July 2008 最后两天....还有最后两天，在西湖的绿荫蒙特索利学园Greentree Montessori Children House GMCH 就要步入历史了,
心里还是充满不舍，但是事实就是事实，接下来要做的就是：忘记背后，努力向前，从绿荫幼之苑重新出发，期待着..... 开始感到压力今天见了实习老师，大部分同学都订下实习日期，而我好像还不知死活，
看着排山倒海的小组作业，个人作业，编满的课程日期，我以为还有时间让我消磨，
我的习惯是喜欢想清楚了要做什么样的呈现，我才会动手，不过通常要想很久，想到快到期限了，才要动手。
不过，今天我察觉到，这次我似乎没有太多时间了，怎么办？
有那一秒钟，我觉得压力来了，Oh god, 在这样的压力下，我能发挥我的所有吗？又在挑战自己的极限！！
到底做什么主题呢？让我想一想....
 槟城之最这趟槟城之旅，带回满满的收获～
最最最开心．．．最兴奋的，当然是老妈子完成了她的基本课程，老妈，你真棒！
 最好吃的，当然是每天的Penang Laksa, Yammi~~
 最刺激的，当然是我的第一次Para sail, Jet ski, Woohoo~~
 最享受的，当然是可以和好友们游览各处！
 最生气的，当然是花了RM60却坐了一辆只值RM20 的长途巴士，一路回到新加坡，那种腰酸背痛，简直是让我想～～
 最惊喜的，当然是我和ma的Basic Trainer 是同一个人，Ken Ito....
 最好玩的，当然是拍照，拍照，拍照，到处拍照...
 最精彩的，当然是creation team walk for MBT...
 最感谢的，当然是SK, our taxi uncle...
 最想念的，当然是你...
 最舒服的，当然是享受按摩...
 最心静的，当然是大自然之旅...
 最大方的，当然是所有的电话和信息，hee... will know end of the month, hmm...
  最满意的，当然是Arthur带来的惊喜...
 Penang, short but wonderful trip~~~~ July 2008 生老病死回到居銮听到的第一个坏消息是舅公去世了。这是一个难过的消息，更难过的是他的孩子选择不回来见他最后一面，而选择了留在英国看顾他正在装修的房子。到底什么是爱？生老病死，是一个过程，但是我还是不能坦然地面对身边有人离开。这个舅公从小就看着我长大，也只有他喜欢叫我“廖心怡”因为他说我是外婆照顾的，所以应该和他姓~~ 晚上到灵堂去看他时，我只对他说：一路好走，谢谢您，您的爱和笑容永远永远在我的心里。 July 2008 槟城之行带着兴奋期待的心情，准备出发到槟城，这趟旅程是特别的。
昨晚的小组会议真的太棒了，看到你们的意愿让我觉得再累再困难，我都愿意付出我的100%..... I LOVE LP.....
go for it anyway.....
今天，有了一个决定就是
松开我的手，让你有个呼吸的空间，
不是你看不见我，是你的心理还有另一个人，或许我的直觉是错的，
距离是什么？距离不是天涯海角，真正的距离是，我在你的面前你也看不见，
下了决定的心情是轻松愉快的，就让这些顺其自然吧。 July 2008 Angel MatchmakerCall myself angel matchmaker,
i'm so so so so happy to know that something different between two of you,
never try never know, my faith and my believe in love.....
keep going.... until the right one right in front..... July 2008 Shape RunComplete my run 55:39
am i dare to take the challenge for half marathon 21km run, end of the year?
thinker me....  July 2008 Wow day~WOW day, is a day to create wow in other peoples life... a interpersonal service to someone else.
Dovan Hospics is the community service i participant this year, (my commitment to myself, every year i want to do something different to the community)
Dovan Hospics only accept patient's whom only have about 3 months to come to the end of life.
first i afraid, i afraid of i cannot handle my emotion, and one rules in the hospics is "dun cry in front of the patient's"
but just like what tim say: we wont cry in front of them, but we cry inside our heart, today is about surrender,
Surrender of what have happen, surrender of the journey all this patient's go thro, just be with them at tis moment,
thro out the day, i feel calm, just enjoy and be with them,
some told me their life story,
some really suffer by pain,
some reject me, ignore me,
some very friendly to me,
some cannot talk, but smile to me,
some just hold my hand tight,
Without any other thing or additional prepare, we just go with our heart,
and our voice of the angel(天使的声音), they sing with their pure and beautiful voice,
song by song, without any instrument, it was really touch!!
after today,
i just want to live my life like that's no tomorrow........
July 2008 自闭症 Autism今天上的课到现在我的心理还是充满感触，
自闭症，一个现时并没有根治的可能，
一群需要社会给予更多谅解，接纳与爱的人......
http:www.autism-society.org
http:www.autism.org.sg
开始收拾……今早来到学校以后, 开始整理和收拾34 的教室, 两个小时的功夫就把课室关了, 楼上楼下的教具, 物品也已经装箱了, 这也意味着离开西湖的日子越来越近了. 还有两个星期, 这里的一切就会结束. Mmmmm……. 心情很复杂…… 昨天带孩子们到麦里芝蓄水池, 那里是我们的游乐场, 每次的到访都让我们有新发现, 当然离开西湖以后, 就不能像现在这样随时可以带孩子们来…. 又一个无奈….. 大部分的孩子已经到义顺去了, 今天和EL 的妈妈谈话, 他正苦恼找不到合适的学校, 继续下来却又造成很多的不方便, 家人的不支持更是让他无法决定, 真希望我可以为她和她的孩子做些什么……..
昨天很开心哦! SY 终于打破鸡蛋, 我很喜欢她那种非常愿意寻求帮助与别人支持下的态度, Ask for support is help!! 加油, 加油, 加油,第二个weekend 以前, 所有的人都打破鸡蛋….. Go for it unreasonable…..
现在在RTRC 上的课, 是很累的咯….. 每次不到两个小时, 我就快撑不下去了. 不过讲师的用心备课真的是心存感激的, 还好的是还有三个月就过去了…..
面对那种偶尔不经意想起你时的心情, 我选择用行动来代替, 可能对你来说太多了? 可能让你不习惯了? 可能这不是你要的? 你的单身宣言还真让我退缩了, 我想说的是, 到目前为止, 我清楚知道自己在做什么, 要的是什么, 想的是什么…. I’ll do what I’ll do, without expectation…. July 2008 Everything is possibleArthur, one of my small group in lp, he really show me everything is possible,
i'm so inspires by him, although sometime he dun know how do, but he do it anyway....
ha, sound like me huh, sometime i really dun know how do but i do it anyway,
硬着头皮去做,做了再来说, 错了不要紧, 最最重要是,我尝试了… Just do it, anyway... at least i try, So, everything is possible, keep exploring the possibility, and make it real!! I'll use it, my courage is amazing~~ July 2008 RelationshipI just wondering what and why am i doing this? i think i lose my courage to really go for what i want, yes, i want a relationship, a person whom can share the joy and sadness and everything, anything with me~~ i not think of marry life, but of course if i get the right person this is way i want to go~~ but then, what mean right?
Actually, what i want is very simple, trusting, honest and loving relationship.
is not about how far or how near is the person, as i believe without connection, even the person just right infront of me, i wont see it~~
I'm proud to say: i'm a good teacher, i'm a great person and friend, but am i a good lover or wife, even best mum in the world (ha, i never think of this, until you ask me this question? how many children i want? as many as i can? two? four? three? oh my god, what am i doing? and thinking? i dun know, but it's not how good i'm, it's how good i want to be.....
hmm.... well, i'll do something about this, just want you to know, distance is not barrier, let see what will happen.
July 2008 what am i doing?Is this a risk or is this crazy idea?
i dun know, i just do it anyway, the worst is i get rejection,
well, never try i never know, let see how...
actually feel nervour....
i'll be fine, i can handle it....
4th week, of the lp journey,
i felt good, as in all the effective coaching i can support my small group even the rest of the peoples,
lp journey is always full of surprise,
lp journey is where i choose to make the different,
lp journey is where i keep taking risk in other area of my life,
lp journey is where i start to create different,
lp, lp, lp.... lp is life, life is lp~~
keep it up~~
July 2008 ....o....n.....s......Cannot believe that i choose to let this happen, well, is happen...
i felt shame, i felt stupid, i felt useless, i felt fear, i felt... the moment i choose to let it happen, i know what is all about....
i dun like this kind of feeling, i dun like this kind of happen, this not what i really want,
the one and only reason cause is i felt lonely, i hate the loneliness experience, i hate it!!
it's not easy to over come the last, this two years, i see how i grow, and i feel proud of what i have achieve, i feel joyful of being who i am... i just let it all quake when the moment i allow this to happen, i'm really stupid...
how come..... i know the answer very well~~
however,
is happen, the past is the past....
i handle it, thank you buddy for listening to me.
my believe drive me to achieve what i really want......
i make this stand to myself, for now on.......
and i want build the new relationship with rejection, be fine with rejection....
it's all right to reject people's or people's reject me, be ok with that!!!
Jia you, Jia you, Jia you, Jia you, Jia you......
Looking forward for tomorrow..... July 2008 最后一分钟~我有一个习惯，喜欢把事情托到最后一分钟才做，
一个月前的Project, 我要到明天要呈现，今天才在最后一分钟才完成。
一个星期前约好的事，我要到最后一分钟才要出门了才拼命找计划好要带的东西。
还有没烫的衣服要没有衣服穿了才要烫，
乱七八糟的房间，要到找不到东西时才要收拾，
日常用品要到用光光了才要买，
光碟要才要归还了才赶通宵把它看完，没看完又不甘心，
这样的习惯，到底是好还是坏呢？
project 其实很早就有概念要怎样做，要做什么，就是没有行动~~
定下约定好的事，本来就知道要准备什么，但是就是.....
脑袋空白？？最后一分钟应该不是不好，只是长期在这样紧张刺激的日子生活，大概很快会老，因为细胞被吓死很快~~
下次，尽量不要再拖到最后一分钟～～我会尽量的，应该是下次再说！ |
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